Friday, May 30, 2008

Some old poem

I've been this way, ever since we broke up
Thoughts come to my mind in a haze
It seems like yesterday we shared love
Now all we do is hate each other

The taste of your love still lingers on
Can't forget those tender moments
They hit me like a thousand knives
I wonder why I am so numb!

Well, life goes on as it should be
It stops for nothing and for no one
I carry this pain forever in my broken heart
Yet, it's time for me to make a new start

Friday, May 16, 2008

New superhero - SuperSpiderIronHulkBatman

Our new superhero is a flawed, confused, struggling, humanized superman. He is deep, dark, profound and has lot of character. He has powers but gets confused as to how to make full use of it. He has problem finding a job, girl friend and none of his relationships last longer.

1. He was terrified of Bats when his parents left him in a cave...
2. He watched his own parents being killed before his own eyes..
3. His parents are aliens..
4. He gets angry, with increased anger, his physical size increases....
5. Because of these problems he has taken to drinking...

So much for the so called superhero movies these days!!!

Thursday, May 15, 2008

writing again

My mind drifts and wanders
I am lost in your thoughts
Wonder why I feel so lonely
When the whole world is mine

Dreams, a thousand I have
Passions, a million I possess
Love, I have it in excess
Yet, there is something missing

You are the reason I live
You are the one for whom I die
I may not have you now or never
That won't stop me from loving you, forever

Life is not in our control
For the Good Lord wields his power
He brought us together
I had a few moments of laughter

You gave me hope to last a lifetime
I cling on them with all my strength
But I am losing the battle dear
The loneliness is tearing me apart

Monday, May 12, 2008

Crisis situation

Last weekend, my advisor dropped a bombshell. I broached the topic of post-doc figuring that he will tell me when should I start packing....But what he told me has left me angry and pissed off.

Let me paraphrase what he said,
1. Officially you're done with PhD....however to make it a good PhD, you need more publications.
2. You will require 4-6 months to apply and get a post-doc after July. So, don't submit the thesis until something works out.
3. You msut get one paper out every month starting June..that will boost your resume.
4. Start applying for PhD. In India, you should try IISc and TIFR!
5. Boston will probably not happen since you will not be able to get funding before July. Drop it.

I am at my wit's end trying to make sense out of his behaviour. When I was applying for post-doc, he told me not to worry. Now he says the exact opposite.
Of course, it is great that I should have more publications, but I cannot continue forever in this place.
Also, attending Boston is a MUST for me for two reasons.
a) Gives me an opportunity to meet people in US and the probability of post-doc increases tremendously.
b) I can directly ask a list of people my advisor knows so that I can set up interview with them.....

Anyway, I will do my best.
1. I will ask my dad to fund me for Boston and I can return the money after IIT sanctions.
2. I will start applying for post-docs and will leave here as soon as anything clicks. Should ask him to fill up recos.

I can't take up an ad-hoc position like RA cause it will drag my resume down. I should aim only for proper post-doc.

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Spectral analysis of signals

By Stoica..... EXCELLENT book on spectral analysis of signals .. better than Preistley!!
That says about the quality of this book!!
Grab the copy asap.... with this book and a computer (to code in C/MATLAB) why would one need anything else!

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Objectives of this month

Experiments:
1. Characterizing FP filter
2. Measuring crosstalk with FP filter
3. MLL at 1 GHz
4. Spontaneous FWM generation using MLL

Theory:
1. Revise the JLT paper
2. Adding QBER to paper 1 and making it a separate conference paper
3. Fix up the Magneto-Optic paper
4. Modulation schemes for QKD
5. Equivalence between Spin-chains and Optical fibre

Seminar:
1. April 14th - EOPM
2. April 21st - System design

Thesis:
1. Writing MLL and revising EOPM chapters
2. Writing system design chapter
3. Start writing synopsis